~to leave my friends at Disney
~to go back to reality
~to go to freezing weather
~to see my friends hook up and leave me alone and single
~for another chapter in my life to end
~for a long, cold winter
~for Christmas to be here already
~for brother to be far away
I can't believe it's almost over. It can't be possible. It can't.
Today I realized how much I yearn for a relationship. Being a 7th wheel (or any wheel for that matter) really sucks. Everyone had someone to hold on to, except me. Sure both Ben and Laura tried to include me in the holding hands thing, but it just felt like I was intruding.
I'm not sure if I like a guy or if I just like being around him (like I do Josh). And wouldn't you know, this guy is older than me for once. Haha. Go figure. I really wanted him to be there today to keep me company. He was supposed to, but his friends from out of state surprised him with a visit so he stayed with them. Understandable...but still...
My family will be here soon.
5 days.
I can't believe it.
I can't.
1 comment:
Just remember: it's o.k. to want a relationship, but not to NEED one... :) I wish you were here! We can be single together. Here's what I tell all my single friends to make them feel better about themselves: I'm going on 21 and I have never been in a relationship, never kissed a guy, and am not even close at the moment... you're way ahead of the curve, lol! Love
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